Robin Egg Blue
Everyone has a time in their life when everything gets turned upside down and can never go back to how they once were. In my series 092608, I examine such a time in my life which was when my father died. I was a young girl then, and had to watch my father fight a life or death battle with cancer. His struggles and loss affected me in many ways. Having been traumatized from watching someone I looked up to and love go through the horrific stages of cancer, to holding his hand while he took his last breath, words have never done justice to explain the events or its aftermath. I have decided that visual art would be exchanged for words to explain my personal experience on how my life is today without my father, and how I still have the raw memories of these horrid moments from my childhood.
I have always relied on videos as a source of memory as an adult since a coping method of mine was to block out any bad memory. With using video and installation as my medium, I am able to show my viewers my past in the rawest form while also emerging them in an environment that isn’t actually there. Showing my video on objects that can relate to any home but also reflects my own personal home, it creates a parallel between the viewer’s memories compared to mine. With showing my videos, it not only shows the viewer my life but also allowing the viewer to experience the exposure to memories that are limited by what are captured on video and only having that limited source to learn a story of certain normal family that had to go through a hard time in their life as a family.